Hm it has been a while eh? I like this journal, I have missed it terribly. It was what you called a "Personification" of sorts. But like I said, I missed this particular journal a lot.

Now as you may be aware, I moved out of home. Since doing so, I have opened my eyes to so much, and have gained so much independance. I have intriguing housemates, and they inspire me to work as hard as I can. I have sort of isolated myself, that is no concern though. It's because I work nights and it is quite exhausting.

In terms of personal life? There are no complaints, none at all. I feel refreshed, alive, almost reborn as you could say. I enjoy this new vigor inside my soul, and I have no intention of returning to the shell that was the old me. The people that dislike me can continue to dislike me, I have no more reason to care. I used to care, I will admit that. And it was obvious by the amount of rantings that I did on this journal. But it seems I have lost the ability to care about the opinions of others. If they want to hold onto pointless memories of events that happened countless months or years ago, so be it. I walk my own path, and should our paths cross again, so long as they aren't aggresive to me, then I will return the favour.

But still, there is that degree of anger that sits inside me. Can you blame me really though, in terms of why I still feel a bubbling rage inside the very thing that is my soul? It is easy to manage, WITH the exception of one person. She will experience the worst of me, and I will savour every moment......

:)

How about that... You can put fifty friends into your bank account....

Anyways a bit of venting time so I can cool myself down before sleep. Went to the doctors today and now I have the common virus... Should be fighting fit for tomorrow. As for my eye.... well it's kind of infected but it should settle down after a week, that's what the doctor says at least.

But that's not what I am venting about.....

You know that feeling you get when you meet someone and they seem nice, then they turn out to be extremely... different? Well it's the feeling I have now with a friend of mine. First met him a year ago at an event, and the first things I said were "Holy Fuckin' Shit you're TALL!!!" And we were friends from there, but it got wierd on my 19th birthday... and then it only proved to get wierder. Dated him for a bit but the ass wouldn't call me when I was in Gympie, so I broke it off due to the reason that he wasn't ready to commit.

Now fast forward to modern times. I have moved on, he hasn't.....Now it's starting to get to the annoying stage where I have to literally say "Don't touch me" to him. I think a kick in the nuts will pretty much give him the wake up call he needs. I don't need more stresses to add to my stress from work. Don't need it, don't want it....

Hmm should invest in those throwing knives I saw up at War Sword... they have nifty swords too.... Anyone know where I can get a hold of 2000 dollars for a katana???

Kaiaken
P.S: Geoff Hughill is more cuter in public....

Never going to eat Maccas again....

I had a burger that tasted like a metal bar on friday night... I vomited...

Today I have the flu... and my right eye is swollen....

How about that for bad luck?

Hmmm whoever said "You become a better person by the challenges you face..."

WAS FULL OF SHIT!!!

So far I almost got spat on because 3 Cleveland trains got cancelled (in a row no less....Had to call the transit officers) as well as other miscellaneous things that have happened. Not to say that I hate my job, it's far better than maccas and it gives me the motivation to improve myself mentally and physically. However I just don't like passengers and customer behaviour. Since it's my job though, I'll suck it up.

In other news I went out to buy "Love mode" volume 7.... IT WAS SOLD OUT!!!!! So I ordered it in.... DAMN!!!

ARRRGHH!!! Shinshi Doumei Cross Volume 4 is OUT TOO!!!! I have to wait till tuesday to get it >( Angry!!!!!!!

Emotionally wise I am not sure of myself. But hey shit happens, guess it comes with the package that is life.

Anyways I wanted to make a quick entry before I left for work. So since it's time to get ready, it's time to go.

Have a nice day :D

Kaiaken

Well I got the QR Job. Yay for me. I think I have been working there for 3 weeks. It's been really good. The job's not that difficult and everyone is so nice.

Now to get rid of my paranoia that I will lose my job. My boss said I was doing well so I don't really need to worry. ^^ Just as long as I don't slack off I am fine (and rest assured, with the amount of money I am being paid - there's not a chance of that happening....).

Now to save for Supanova and other things, like a nice trip to Japan. Oh yeah....

Speaking of April though, my 21st is coming up (joy). I honestly don't know what to do. Getting pissed is fun but over-rated.

Yes I have returned to my old journal. I realise now I was just trying to run from dickheads, well I have had enough. If my nickname should be linked to "Crazy Insane So-and-so", so be it. I dug my grave, I am lying in it (don't take that as an emo thing.... It's a metaphor....) so whatever I have done.... NONE of you FUCKING business!!!! Bitch and whine all about me, I could care less. Most of you only hear stuff, you don't know anything else.

Dumb assholes.

WOW that felt really good. Now when I get my pay I can resume collecting ANIME~!!!!! (Oh look a rhyme).

Have fun :D

Kaiaken the eternally fangirlish.

This journal is closing!

I have my reasons.

Anyways my new journal is http://qld-er.livejournal.com, and I will make it a friend's ONLY once more.

So yeah.

Later.

I am now officially in the Dir En Grey AMV Multi Editor Project (thingy!!!)

BOO YA! I rule t3h skool! I r00l j00 pplz!!!

Anyways it will be cool, so when it is out, thou shalt linky. Until then...

It's Scrutiny TIME!!!

Kaiaken

I thought at one stage, love was merely a dream. Something that existed in the fantasies of those who couldn't feel, or didn't want to feel. I couldn't feel, rather, I didn't allow myself to feel out of a fear of being crushed.

However that changed almost 10 months ago, when I braved it all and told the one I loved that I cared for him, and rather than push me away, he opened his arms and hugged me. It was the first time I truly felt alive, that I was wanted in this world again.

Sometimes I thought that this was all an elaborate dream, a delusion. I sometimes wondered "This couldn't be happening to me right? I couldn't have found happiness..." It would cause me to become melancholic.... It was because I feared losing that which gave me this happiness. The person that loved me despite my flaws in my personality, and the flaws in my family. I feared that loss so much that it would cause me to cry. But he would be there to assure me that he would never leave me....

That he would always love me...

And that is all I really want from him...just his love....

When god gave me the ability to use photoshop, he thought I would use it for good....

Right?

WRONG!

Because I am a person with a strange imagination, as soon as Afros suggested I make a poster dedicated to Kommando in his vision, I followed along KNOWING full well of what I would be doing.

So here is the result of a country boy's boredom and an insane girl's imaginings come to life....





Thank you Afros for putting me up to this....it was funny.

Yes you heard first from Jedi_Vader20. Telstra have tried to screw me over big time!!!

But they will not get away with it. Neither will my family for making me feel like crap over the whole situation.

NEVER!